This week I did something insane. Something I never thought would actually happen. Something I was pretty sure by the end the odds were never going to be in my favour for.
I published my debut novel!!!
White as Snow is officially on sale on Kindle and I can officially call myself a published author. In many ways, I just hit Happily Ever After. If this was a Disney movie, this is where the prince and princess would ride off into the distance as we fade out to credits while some Disney starlet we’ve never really heard of attempts to re-sing the signature song.
But I won’t lie. There have been days (months, nah scratch that, years) that I thought this day would never come. This book has been ten years in development. It has had four complete rewrites, most of the characters have changed name at least once, it even had a genre swap at one point – and let’s not even get into the sheer number of drafting and editing versions it went through. And on the days when I hit my low points, I needed all the motivation I could get.
Finally seeing the word “LIVE” on my Amazon bookshelf filled me with a mix of emotions. Ecstasy. Disbelief. Oh-My-God-What-Have-I-Done. But most of all, I felt pride. I felt a sense of sheer accomplishment. Even if the whole world hates it. Even if I never sell so much as a single copy. It is mine. I did it. It’s been a hell of a journey and I survived. I saw Happily Ever After and I did not stop fighting dragons until I got there. I might be bruised and scared, but I’ll tell you something, it was 1000% worth it.
Therefore it seemed only apt on the eve of my first great step into authordom and given my novel is indeed a fairytale retelling, that I turn to the Godfather of them All. The Master of Magic and the Man who proved Happily Ever After is out there for anyone willing to fight for it – Mr Walt Disney.
Disney is a huge part of what made me the writer I am. There is no doubt that my fascination with fairytales and all things magical came from a steady childhood diet of the best of the Mouse. And as I grew older, and came to appreciate things beyond pretty princesses and catchy tunes, I came too to admire the sheer craft of his unique ability to bring such startling storytelling from those around him.
In a very personal sense, his imagining (namely Walt Disney World Florida) is also to thank for me having the courage to pick this project up and take it from the (awful) story it was back then and turn it into the (I’m pretty proud of it) novel it is today. In my second year at Uni, I had the fortune of working in Orlando for three months in Magic Kingdom. I left the UK that summer just another graduate resigned on her path to a nice sensible little job in an office to pay the bills who didn’t even give her writing a second chance. I came back three months later a writer. A lot of that was to do with the amazing people I met out there but some of it was also about being inside one man’s dream. Though I always did find it heartbreaking he died before it opened. I remember sitting that day in induction training at the University of Disney (because yes there is such a thing – I have a diploma and everything) and thinking how terribly sad it would be for your dream to come true and you never knew it.
His background too, is inspiring. This is a man who came from nothing. The boy who used to do the paper round in worn out shoes in the snow. He was told time and time again that it wouldn’t happen. To give up on his dream.
But he never did.
Sometimes (when I really want to depress myself) I think about what the world might have been like if Disney had listened to the naysayers. If he had just thrown his hands up and gone “screw it” and given up on his little mouse. Whatever you may think of Walt (because trust me I know he wasn’t all candy floss and chalk paintings), his determination is one to be admired.
So here are my favourite Disney quotes – the words of wisdom that have kept me on track this past decade and remind all of us, no matter where we are in our journeys, that Happily Ever After is out there – we just have to keep fighting.
1. THE gentle reminder that imagination is not something only for children
2. the PEP talk we all need to hear every once in a while
3. THE “Chill It’s not as bad as you think it is” Motto
4. THE remember why we do this in the first place reminder
5. THE “Anything is Possible” BOOST
6. THE JOY MANIFESTO
7. THE “Get on with it” prompt
8. THE “BELieve in yourself” vote of confidence
9. THE disney equivalent of “if it doesn’t scare you, you aren’t doing it right”
10. the Tribute
Finally, not a quote but I watched this documentary years ago and this final two minutes will always stick in my mind. I’d like to think Walt is out there somewhere and he can see that the vision that started as one man’s dream, is now one shared by the world.
All that is left to say is…
Have a Magical Day!!